again

I spent another week, up until last Friday night, in a psychiatric ward again. I was suicidal again, but it turns out this time it was because of a reaction to meds. The meds they put me on the last time had a reverse effect and made me extremely depressed.

Things are better now. I am on less meds and doing well. I'm still trying to get back into the swing of things, but it's coming back slowly. There is no need to rush myself.

I am still fighting with my U of P financial situation. All I can do is sit back and hope something breaks somewhere. I'm doing all that I can and can't let it get to me as much as it was.

I think what I need to do now is start doing more of my Business Management course. I haven't worked on it in a long time. I was waiting for results of tests, but I guess they've all come back. I haven't heard anything from them otherwise.

I am also trying to refocus on my writing. I need to do more reviewing as well, but that's always been a problem for me.

The Higher Powers give us time on our hands for a reason. I think this is my time to start straightening my life out and making amends in it.

Let's hope that I am able to do it.